With the lights turned off

I don't really feel like blogging but for some reason I am anyway. So yeah. Um...what to say. Like i have things i could tell you guys but i don't want to write it all out. How about this I still love B but I heard B is talking to K and K is also talking to four other guys. Then I saw this kid get knocked out cold in the hallway. Like what the fuck? I'm so sick of this shitty ass school. Fuck. I just want to run away with Sweetpea in my car and drive and drive. Never ever looking back. I still want to run with the wild horses. Screw this I want Bryce and idk how to get him back. I've spent so many nights thinking and crying then thinking and crying. WTF? can't he see we're meant to be together? :'( ....i miss everything about him. His beautiful smile, the way he looked down at me. The look in his eyes were you could tell he loved me. The way he grabbed my hips and pulled me closer. The way my hand fit perfectly on the back of his neck playing with his little curls. How about the way everyone could tell we were perfect for each  other? I don't know what to do anymore. I've begged. I would do anything to get him back. Besides kill someone unless that meant K then I would but whateverrrrr. I'm tired of not sleeping. I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of seeing him flirt with other girls. I'm tired of pretending. AND i am really FUCKIN tired of pretending everything is okay at school when i come home and fall apart. I hate hate seeing my fb single and not seeing in a relationship with Bryce.